2004-12-24 - 11:30 a.m.

merry x-mas

i can't believe it's christmas eve already.

or that i am at work.

remember when you were a kid, and as soon as december first came, it meant that christmas was well on its way and the twenty five days until santa came stretched out before you like a highway that disappeared at the horizon.

now it's christmas eve. already.

when i am supposed to be working, i sneak in some blog reading. there are a lot of people out there who i read regularly who are not happy about the holidays. there's a lot of bitching about the inconvenience of all the people, and the inconvenience of shopping, the horrible music ... you name it. christmas has become such a hassle for a lot of people unfortunately. i think to myself, "is this what is was like for my parents, when they were my age?" were they having anxiety attacks at the mall? trying to budget their money so they could eat and pick up something little for their friends and family? have things gotten harder for my generation around this time, or have a lot of us been raised to take the hard work that comes into this holiday season for granted, and can't handle fulfilling the roll of the 'santa claus' that they always assumed effortlessly drifted down their chimneys?

i have to admit. when i'm walking down queen street, and have to get to a shop five stores away and there's a pack of teenagers meandering slowly in front of me, so i can't pass them and have to trudge behind them, i scowl. i swear. i bitch. when i'm in the mall, and there's someone completely blocking a shop exit or entrance, and will no move no matter how many times i say "excuse me" to them i plow on through angrily. yes, this christmas i got my "rage" on a couple of times.

but the "day" has arrived. tonight i am going to my grandparents' house. we're going to watch christmas movies, and eat goodies, and put up the christmas tree. we're going to have eggnog (or in my case, beer ... hahah) and listen to "boney m" and eat fishcakes. like we do every year. and i like it. i like the fact that i am working now, and have a steady income and can give my grandparents and my mom and my uncle things that they'll enjoy. (yah yah yah i know christmas has become so commercial, it's all about spending blah blah blah, but i *enjoy* finding things that when my family opens them up, they're happy and surprised. they've given me so much during the year, and over the years, and my entire life. not just material things, but they have been there for me, and if buying my uncle a 30 pack of cd roms makes him smile, then that's all good)

... where the hell was i ...?

i am wicked babbling.

okay ... um ... well ... i guess what i wanted to say is that i wish for everyone if they are able to make the best of this time. to try and forget all of the suffering that they've endured to get to this day, and enjoy themselves. appreciate the things others are doing for you, and the time you get to spend with family and friends. make the best of whatever situation you are in. keep a positive spirit. and for those of you that can't be with family and loved ones this season, in the immortal words of stephen stills, love the one you're with.

okay. that was super cheese. forgive me. Merry Christmas, happy holidays, and here's a hot betty paige picture.

oooH! i forgot to tell you something funny! last night corona, scabby, spike and i all had a little gift exchange at spike's house. it was cool, we ate finger foods, and watched "The Ref" and talked exchanged presents. well spike happened to know what corona and jeff got for me, and (obviously) what we had gotten for corona, so he made us open our gifts at exactly the same time. we had both bought eachother sushi-making stuff ...! i swear to god, we share a brain sometimes. it was soooo spooky!

also i let violet open one of her gifts, a t-shirt and a spankin' new collar, that has studs on it in the shape of little bones. she quickly tossed these aside in favour of the box, which she ripped to pieces with gusto. i love my dog!

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